I will start a live cam soon. I am waiting to receive my package from Lovense. I am looking forward to it. I do feel confident in producing adult content. I feel a safe area to enjoy and explore sexuality is a good thing. I do know not everyone agrees and for me making sure I keep safe boundaries, especially with the drama on beliefs, is important. Plus I personally feel it was one of my values to respect others boundaries.
I did have a talk with my neighbor when we put up our Nudity sign prior to considering the adult industry. We honestly put it up because we were considering sunbathing in the nude and to scare off religious people. We were harassed allot at an old address by religious people. We didn't know if someone thought it funny to send them to harass us or they decided to themselves. Either way, moving back to Washington we didn't want to encounter that again. Plus we put up an over 18 sign because previously when we lived in Washington I had to continually be a babysitter and sometimes when I was no longer needed it seemed my name was trashed. No more childcare or volunteering for me. My children are grown, I'm not a nurturer type and people need the responsibility they created. Mine are grown and to be honest no matter my hard work, I am still a fool in some peoples eyes. Sometimes I think I am too available to people and some don't value my time other than being rude and at times abusive, so it is my turn to create my life.
Anyways, I spoke to my neighbor about the nude sign knowing he has grandchildren. I said I would make sure no children saw us in the nude (sometimes bikinis are considered nude). He said he believed in property rights which I appreciated. I said I believe in respect and he agreed. I have had some cars since posting a video online drive slow around my home and some act questionably concerning so I am wearing earphones when outside so their actions remain theirs.
We keep to ourselves doing our best to respect others and work quietly. I honestly don't have time for people outside of family, building the business, working on the homestead and celebrating progress as a family. Real life interactions give me social anxiety which I hate. Avoidance of people outside of hubs and sons in real life brings me so much peace. Peace is expensive. So is time when people waste it while others are paying for it. Some though are insecure looking for any opportunity for attention. We are aware of that.
Loosing weight I feel more confident. My body isn't perfect but I am working towards that. If I am able to build a profitable business then having some surgery and going to the gym is a tax deduction. Since losing our trucking business to being regulated out of it, and to be honest we were overwhelmed anyway, things have been very tight. We have been through worse. When you struggle you are tested and it gives perseverance for the future. I am just grateful to be alive. When I was heavier I remember crying in the semi considering giving up due to my weight and pain. Now I do walking planks, bridges, and more and feel so much better. Bad times bring so much gratitude to the soul.
Today I am working on our tractor backhoe to dig out our apiary. Bees come this week and I start my apprenticeship in beekeeping. I have an OnlyFans account I wanted to have somewhat of a reality show feel with. Homestead life and cooking. Our brand is monogamous for reasons I previously said in a prior post plus we are blood donors and to be with other partners would prevent us from donating. My blood also is needed for cancer patients so it is important for me to take care of myself.
Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. I really appreciate it.
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